Around 3-4 weeks ago when my fiance left me I decided to weigh myself. I was 109 kilograms, the heaviest I have ever been.
One of my goals on the Alpha Blade program is to lose weight, gain muscle, and become healthy again.
I am now achieving this goal. Over the past few weeks I have been trying to eat healthy again and started to do a little bit of exercise. So far I have lost 6.1 kilograms and I weigh 102.9 kilograms.
My goal weight is around 80kg lean or 87kg with good muscle definition. With my focus in the Alpha Blade mindset I know I can achieve this goal.
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
The Optimist's Creed
Promise Yourself
To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, and expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
C.D. Larson
To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, and expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
C.D. Larson
Meditation for focusing
I began meditating last week for relaxation and focusing. I have only been meditating for 30 minutes a day but already it is making me feel like a new person.
From today I have also started meditating while also saying the Alpha Blade Mantra "I am eternal and infinite, Loving and strong, I am perfect in all ways, I am the creator of my universe".
This has given me one of the best feelings of meditation so far and is giving me an even more positive outlook on the future.
I will post more of my journey soon.
From today I have also started meditating while also saying the Alpha Blade Mantra "I am eternal and infinite, Loving and strong, I am perfect in all ways, I am the creator of my universe".
This has given me one of the best feelings of meditation so far and is giving me an even more positive outlook on the future.
I will post more of my journey soon.
Welcome to my journey.
Hi, and welcome to my journey on the Alpha Blade body+spirit+mind program.
My name is Fox and here is my story:
Just over a year ago, my life was amazing. I had a good high paying job, I had the girl of my dreams, I was healthy, and I believed everything was going great.
All of a sudden I had a lot of depressive feelings, I couldn't sleep at night, I would cry for no reason at all, and I truly felt as if I was going insane. I also had no idea why all of this came about.
Anyway, I decided to see a doctor about this and I told them my story. The doctor told me I had 'depression' and prescribed me the drug Lexapro. At first I thought "great, i know what is wrong with me know, i'm depressed, but the drugs will help". Oh how I was wrong.
My 'depression' increased after I knew that i was 'depressed' and so I went back to the doctors again and they prescribed me an even larger dose of Lexapro and then eventually also prescribed me a larger than normal dose of Xanax. At this time I was diagnosed with "Severe Depression with Anxiety Disorder" or something very similar along those lines.
This medication completely changed who I was. I was like a zombie in an empty shell. I had no feelings towards anything. I ended up losing a high paying job because I just didn't care. I ended up putting on lot's of weight. I ended up getting into more debt. My fiance and I lost the house that we were going to build together. Our wedding got cancelled. I ended up not caring about my fiance and I started to treat her very badly. She decided to cheat on me because I just wasn't the same person anymore. My life was falling apart while I was on this medication, and I didn't even care.
One day I just decided that I can't take it anymore and that I cannot cope with what the medication is doing to me. I decided to stop taking all of my medication. For the first week I was fine, then all of a sudden I had extremely bad side effects from stopping so quickly. I would be walking through the shops or down the street and I would feel a sharp "electric shock" go all the way from my toes up into the top of my head and I would nearly faint. This happened for a good 2-3 weeks and made me feel like crap. Another side effect of stopping the medication was that it made me suffer in the bedroom. I couldn't last as long with my fiance and I also didn't care. It was terrible.
Anyway, since all of this happened I stayed bitter because of the cheating and also because of my 'depression'. I stayed that way for another 6-7 months and it ruined me. 3-4 weeks ago my fiance and I broke up. I believe losing her was just the wake up call that I have needed to make me change my ways and start my head and heart off fresh.
My goals on the Alpha Blade body+spirit+mind program are:
I have decided that I am going to start my own successful business.
I have decided that I am going to be healthy and fit again.
I have decided that I am going to build or buy a nice house.
I have decided that I will find love again, hopefully with my fiance, but if not, then with someone who will appreciate me for who I am in all ways.
Most of all, I am going to live a good life.
My name is Fox and here is my story:
Just over a year ago, my life was amazing. I had a good high paying job, I had the girl of my dreams, I was healthy, and I believed everything was going great.
All of a sudden I had a lot of depressive feelings, I couldn't sleep at night, I would cry for no reason at all, and I truly felt as if I was going insane. I also had no idea why all of this came about.
Anyway, I decided to see a doctor about this and I told them my story. The doctor told me I had 'depression' and prescribed me the drug Lexapro. At first I thought "great, i know what is wrong with me know, i'm depressed, but the drugs will help". Oh how I was wrong.
My 'depression' increased after I knew that i was 'depressed' and so I went back to the doctors again and they prescribed me an even larger dose of Lexapro and then eventually also prescribed me a larger than normal dose of Xanax. At this time I was diagnosed with "Severe Depression with Anxiety Disorder" or something very similar along those lines.
This medication completely changed who I was. I was like a zombie in an empty shell. I had no feelings towards anything. I ended up losing a high paying job because I just didn't care. I ended up putting on lot's of weight. I ended up getting into more debt. My fiance and I lost the house that we were going to build together. Our wedding got cancelled. I ended up not caring about my fiance and I started to treat her very badly. She decided to cheat on me because I just wasn't the same person anymore. My life was falling apart while I was on this medication, and I didn't even care.
One day I just decided that I can't take it anymore and that I cannot cope with what the medication is doing to me. I decided to stop taking all of my medication. For the first week I was fine, then all of a sudden I had extremely bad side effects from stopping so quickly. I would be walking through the shops or down the street and I would feel a sharp "electric shock" go all the way from my toes up into the top of my head and I would nearly faint. This happened for a good 2-3 weeks and made me feel like crap. Another side effect of stopping the medication was that it made me suffer in the bedroom. I couldn't last as long with my fiance and I also didn't care. It was terrible.
Anyway, since all of this happened I stayed bitter because of the cheating and also because of my 'depression'. I stayed that way for another 6-7 months and it ruined me. 3-4 weeks ago my fiance and I broke up. I believe losing her was just the wake up call that I have needed to make me change my ways and start my head and heart off fresh.
My goals on the Alpha Blade body+spirit+mind program are:
I have decided that I am going to start my own successful business.
I have decided that I am going to be healthy and fit again.
I have decided that I am going to build or buy a nice house.
I have decided that I will find love again, hopefully with my fiance, but if not, then with someone who will appreciate me for who I am in all ways.
Most of all, I am going to live a good life.
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